Elliot called last evening, in a panic ! He was holding Mugsy and I could hear my little pup crying in the background. Elliot says that he was just freaking out...He thinks it has something to do with the Bio - Spot that Nong put on him a couple of days prior. Elliot had already taken him to his vet and they had not very much for him and after getting back home, Mugsy had gotton worse. Elliot was in a panic.
I looked up online the side effects of Bio Spot reactions....After realizing many dogs who had allergic responses, died, I called a 24 hour Emergency Vet in his area and got an appt.
Elliot got him there and they put him on IVs and a heavy tranquilizer. Elliot had to leave him for the night and we can't get any information until later today !! UGH ! Hang in their Mugsy ! We love you !
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Faith
Over the last few years...I've been through alot...and my faith in God has taken a beating. Hmm...Not sure if my faith in God has taken as much of a beating as my faith in "God's People".
I'm not attempting to sound as if I'm a little angel or that I have done everything perfectly leading up to my separation and divorce. However, "The Church" / "God's People" were less than loving during it all.
The day that I moved out from my ex wife....she had attempted a "sneak attack" and had invited some people over for an "intervention". She laid out her case against me....I had nothing to say. I could have attacked her in front of these so called friends...I had solid evidence of her failures in the marriage...but what good would that have done? In my mind the marriage was already dead....I already had an apartment...It was just a matter of timing. So, I just moved out.
I was judged by people who considered me their best friend , as well as, the church I attended; with people who barely knew me. What was the crime ? Owning up to the truth ! Owning up to the fact, that this marriage had been dead for years and that we were only together for the children ? I will own and take responsibility for the way I ended up moving out...I should have sat the ex wife down and told her 2 months earlier of my intent on ending the marriage. However, I was a coward. I kept dragging out the inevitable. I should have been more of a man and just ended it instead of dragging it out.
However, the "Church / God's People" were silent to me except for a couple of very cold letters telling me how horrible I was....the disappointment I was....I NEVER got a letter or phone call asking me how I was...or are you ok ?
The reaction of "The Church" sent me into a downward spiral on my already faltering faith. As a conservative christian, I was struggling with being Gay and aligning myself to the Bible. I remained out of church for almost 4 years and my relationship with God damaged to the point of almost unbelief.
In 2008, I began attending a Progressive Church which accepts both straight and gay, equally. I am making the right steps...but far from where I would hope to be by now. I, truly, believe in a personal relationship with Jesus. A relationship that is about love, acceptance, worship, obedience. A relationship that causes me to be more like him...a more loving person.
God...Help me put some of this past behind me....Help me trust you....Help me believe that you love me for who I am...because you created me in your image....And you don't make mistakes.
I'm not attempting to sound as if I'm a little angel or that I have done everything perfectly leading up to my separation and divorce. However, "The Church" / "God's People" were less than loving during it all.
The day that I moved out from my ex wife....she had attempted a "sneak attack" and had invited some people over for an "intervention". She laid out her case against me....I had nothing to say. I could have attacked her in front of these so called friends...I had solid evidence of her failures in the marriage...but what good would that have done? In my mind the marriage was already dead....I already had an apartment...It was just a matter of timing. So, I just moved out.
I was judged by people who considered me their best friend , as well as, the church I attended; with people who barely knew me. What was the crime ? Owning up to the truth ! Owning up to the fact, that this marriage had been dead for years and that we were only together for the children ? I will own and take responsibility for the way I ended up moving out...I should have sat the ex wife down and told her 2 months earlier of my intent on ending the marriage. However, I was a coward. I kept dragging out the inevitable. I should have been more of a man and just ended it instead of dragging it out.
However, the "Church / God's People" were silent to me except for a couple of very cold letters telling me how horrible I was....the disappointment I was....I NEVER got a letter or phone call asking me how I was...or are you ok ?
The reaction of "The Church" sent me into a downward spiral on my already faltering faith. As a conservative christian, I was struggling with being Gay and aligning myself to the Bible. I remained out of church for almost 4 years and my relationship with God damaged to the point of almost unbelief.
In 2008, I began attending a Progressive Church which accepts both straight and gay, equally. I am making the right steps...but far from where I would hope to be by now. I, truly, believe in a personal relationship with Jesus. A relationship that is about love, acceptance, worship, obedience. A relationship that causes me to be more like him...a more loving person.
God...Help me put some of this past behind me....Help me trust you....Help me believe that you love me for who I am...because you created me in your image....And you don't make mistakes.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Leaving for NYC on Wednesay, Oct 14
YAY ! I'm excited to be visiting my oldest boy this week....I'm heading to NY on Wednesday Morning. However, alot has to take place before I leave....Grocery Store...Bank...3 more nights at American Express...2 more short shifts at Pier One.....packing....UGH ! I think Wednesday may be a blur ! I may be just exhausted.
I checked the weather for NY....Looks like the days will be low 60's or high 50's...nights in the 40's...but sad to say....seems like a lot of rain while i'm there....
I'm excited to see the granddogs !! I miss that ole Mugsy and Bella....Dumbledore, Orange Juice, and Penny ...
I don't really have a clue what we'll be doing while I'm there...I'm taking a couple of books...my laptop from work (only if I get totally bored)...
I'm hoping I'll get to hang out at the beach some...taking walks....I always get rejuvenated when at the seaside. I'm sure we'll go into the city a few times...as well.
I'm just happy to be there, visiting my son !
I checked the weather for NY....Looks like the days will be low 60's or high 50's...nights in the 40's...but sad to say....seems like a lot of rain while i'm there....
I'm excited to see the granddogs !! I miss that ole Mugsy and Bella....Dumbledore, Orange Juice, and Penny ...
I don't really have a clue what we'll be doing while I'm there...I'm taking a couple of books...my laptop from work (only if I get totally bored)...
I'm hoping I'll get to hang out at the beach some...taking walks....I always get rejuvenated when at the seaside. I'm sure we'll go into the city a few times...as well.
I'm just happy to be there, visiting my son !
Thursday, October 8, 2009
God Bless The USA
God Bless The USA
by Lee Greenwood
*****
If tomorrow all the things were gone, I’d worked for all my life. And I had to start again, with just my children and my wife.
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I’d thank my lucky stars, to be livin here today. ‘Cause the flag still stands for freedom, and they can’t take that away.
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And I’m proud to be an American, where at least I know I’m free. And I wont forget the men who died, who gave that right to me.
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And I gladly stand up, next to you and defend her still today. ‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land, God bless the USA.
*****
From the lakes of Minnesota, to the hills of Tennessee. Across the plains of Texas, From sea to shining sea.
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From Detroit down to Houston, and New York to L.A. Well there's pride in every American heart,and its time we stand and say.
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That I’m proud to be an American, where at least I know I’m free. And I wont forget the men who died, who gave that right to me.
*****
And I gladly stand up,next to you and defend her still today. ‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land, God bless the USA.
*****
And I’m proud to be and American, where at least I know I’m free. And I wont forget the men who died, who gave that right to me.
*****
And I gladly stand up, next to you and defend her still today. ‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land, God bless the USA.
"There is no remedy for love but to love more."
Henry David Thoreau
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"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."
Aristotle
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What a beautiful mess, what a beautiful mess I'm in spending all my time with you There's nothing else I'd rather do. What a sweet addiction that I'm caught up in, cause I can't get enough Can't stop the hunger for your love. What a beautiful mess, what a beautiful mess I'm in.
(Chorus: Beautiful Mess) Diamond Rio
Monday, October 5, 2009
Fall 2009
So Far, Fall 2009 has been absolutely beautiful. The Corn Fields behind my house have been picked and mowed. The Dogs and I have been walking the perimeter everyday...enjoying the fresh, crisp air, and light breeze. I have noticed that the fruit trees are heavy with fruit. My aging Uncle, next door says that it is a sign of a hard winter. The Persimmon Tree, Pecan Trees, Apple Tree, all are loaded with fruit; to the point that the limbs are straining to not break.
I have so enjoyed sitting on the deck in the mornings, drinking hot tea and reading...lol..and dozing...
I leave for NYC on Wednesday, Oct 14, to visit my eldest son for about 9 days. I've been keeping track of the weather and it looks like it will be very nice for my visit...Highs around 60 and lows in the 40's. I'm looking forward to a couple of days on the beach...reading...and napping.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Fall 2009 (Sept 30, Oct 1 - 3 )
Wow....What beautiful weather we are having here in NC. The days are in the high 60's /low 70's and the nights are in the mid 50's. Absolutely perfect temps. The windows are open...and fresh air is pouring into the house.
Hands down, Fall is my most favorite season. The Crisp Air, the bright blue sky, the trees so filled with color....How can anyone doubt the existence of GOD. Only the Almighty himself could be this artistic and creative. Thank You...Thank You GOD for such beauty and splendor.
I must say, I have enjoyed the last days off as much as any days in recent YEARS....I, actually, had my normal 3 days off from American Express and at the same time, 2 of the days, I was off at my part time job at Pier One, as well.
On Thursday, I washed windows and did some very thorough deep cleaning in my family room, kitchen and bedroom. It felt so good to have it done. The house looks quite nice at the moment...LOL...The Children haven't had time to mess it up yet ! On Friday, I did Laundry, and made Lasagna for the kids and Rodney. Ah...the mention of another man !! Hmmm! Who is Rodney ?! I'm not telling, yet ! I can say he is a very, very good friend...lol...My current "Man-Friend ! I'll leave it there for the moment.
We had dinner on the deck...It was quite enjoyable..I really like having the family time with the kids and having Rodney there. Rodney, Jessica and I went to see a movie...."The Invention of Lying"....The critics give it a "B" rating. I think a "C" is more accurate. It just didn't do all that for me.
On Saturday, I took Andrew to a wrestling tournament at his high school...His mom and her husband, Mike came, as well. I sat for 3 1/2 hours waiting for Andrew to wrestle...Finally, I left at noon. Mike texted me at 2 to let me know that he just wrestled the first time. After getting home, shortly after noon, I took the dogs for a walk in the freshly mowed field....came back and sat on the deck and read for a while....I'm reading a really good book...."The Six Wives of Henry VIII" by Alison Weir. It's very well written and I get lost in reading. Rodney stopped by at 2:30 and asked if I would ride to Raleigh with him for a bit. I was happy he invited me and I accepted the invitation. We had a really nice afternoon. I got home around 6:45...jumped in bed...surrounded by the "pups" and napped till time to come to work.
It was just nice to have a couple of days off and not think of work...just work around the house...cook...find time to read..nap and spend time with the family and people you love....Doesn't get much better than this !
Delicious autumn! My very soul is wedded to it, and if I were a bird I would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns. George Eliot
"I cannot endure to waste anything as precious as autumn sunshine by staying in the house. So I spend almost all the daylight hours in the open air.- Nathaniel Hawthorne
Hands down, Fall is my most favorite season. The Crisp Air, the bright blue sky, the trees so filled with color....How can anyone doubt the existence of GOD. Only the Almighty himself could be this artistic and creative. Thank You...Thank You GOD for such beauty and splendor.
I must say, I have enjoyed the last days off as much as any days in recent YEARS....I, actually, had my normal 3 days off from American Express and at the same time, 2 of the days, I was off at my part time job at Pier One, as well.
On Thursday, I washed windows and did some very thorough deep cleaning in my family room, kitchen and bedroom. It felt so good to have it done. The house looks quite nice at the moment...LOL...The Children haven't had time to mess it up yet ! On Friday, I did Laundry, and made Lasagna for the kids and Rodney. Ah...the mention of another man !! Hmmm! Who is Rodney ?! I'm not telling, yet ! I can say he is a very, very good friend...lol...My current "Man-Friend ! I'll leave it there for the moment.
We had dinner on the deck...It was quite enjoyable..I really like having the family time with the kids and having Rodney there. Rodney, Jessica and I went to see a movie...."The Invention of Lying"....The critics give it a "B" rating. I think a "C" is more accurate. It just didn't do all that for me.
On Saturday, I took Andrew to a wrestling tournament at his high school...His mom and her husband, Mike came, as well. I sat for 3 1/2 hours waiting for Andrew to wrestle...Finally, I left at noon. Mike texted me at 2 to let me know that he just wrestled the first time. After getting home, shortly after noon, I took the dogs for a walk in the freshly mowed field....came back and sat on the deck and read for a while....I'm reading a really good book...."The Six Wives of Henry VIII" by Alison Weir. It's very well written and I get lost in reading. Rodney stopped by at 2:30 and asked if I would ride to Raleigh with him for a bit. I was happy he invited me and I accepted the invitation. We had a really nice afternoon. I got home around 6:45...jumped in bed...surrounded by the "pups" and napped till time to come to work.
It was just nice to have a couple of days off and not think of work...just work around the house...cook...find time to read..nap and spend time with the family and people you love....Doesn't get much better than this !
Delicious autumn! My very soul is wedded to it, and if I were a bird I would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns. George Eliot
"I cannot endure to waste anything as precious as autumn sunshine by staying in the house. So I spend almost all the daylight hours in the open air.- Nathaniel Hawthorne
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